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I just don't feel myself. I have the mulligrubs and my anxiety has me overthinking. I started praying and asked God to give me peace and help with my feelings and He did. He give me confirmation 3 times!  (read under each picture) #GodIsGreaterThentheanxiety #Faithoverfear I was folding clothes and came across the first shirt and was like ok God I hear you. Then a few minutes later came across the second one. I was speechless but grateful for the confirmation. I have had this shirt for a few years and tonight is the first time I saw the writing in the right bottom hand of the sand under the chair. Wow! God really showed me that everything is gonna be alright 🙏 So I posted this to my FB the other day(1-19-26). I have been and was feeling down. I can't explain it, like a heavy blanket over me and I can't find or feel "Joy". I don't want to call it or claim it as depression but I can just feel and tell something is off. Almost to the point of fear. I don't l...

 Oh what a day! Definitely had it's share of adventures and lessons learned the hard way.  I will give the short version of what went on today. Got up at 4:45 to get ready to pick my dad up at 5:30 to take him to Little Rock to UAMS to have some skin cancer on his head removed. We didn't know it at the time this was going to happen, we just thought we would see the Dr and he would tell us what was going on and what they would do to treat it. Then make an appointment to come back. First we look for the right place for 30 minutes, this place is huge! Then we go in and they tell us they are doing the procedure today. They cut/burn a hole in the back of my dad's head. We wait 30 minutes for them to test it and it comes back they got it all. Praise the Lord! Now here's where things get interesting, we head home, stop in Bryant to eat at waffle House. We then proceed to do some errands and I drop Dad off at around noonish. I go over to a side job that I had and I start my wor...

  MOVING FORWARD WITH JOY in 2026 As we say goodbye to 2025 I have to say I'm thankful for all the ups and downs but more importantly the people who made the hard times bearable. I appreciate and love each of you.  This year(2026) isn’t about proving anything to anyone. It’s not about shoving negative or positive things or happenings in critics’ faces or making doubters eat their words. This year will be about God, Faith, Family and Me and the work I'm going to put in to be the best I can be(spiritually, mentally and physically). It's going to be about showing up with everything I have. The good, the bad and the ugly. It's going to be the realist I have been in a long time. It will be saying NO to things that steal my JOY and only saying yes if I want to not because I feel I have to. It's about trusting the process and enjoying the journey and believing in what’s coming. I’m moving forward, not in spite of the critics(mainly myself), but independent of them entirely...

There is A LOT I deal with or maybe I should say I don't. I have been working on this for years and I'm slowly getting to a place I feel like I can truly be myself. The right people will stand with you, support you, catch you when you fall but more important will love you just the way you are. When things  get hard they don't leave. The others "so call people" who love you with conditions will get upset when you tell them no or when you are trying to better yourself, they don't listen and they truly don't understand. When things get hard or too emotional they blame you, they make you feel bad. Most, not all will walk away. Hard times expose real people and fake ones. This devotion hit hard. If you know me and what I have been through you know I have come a long ways. Ready to walk into my 50's with God leading, not feeling bad for doing what I have to do for myself and family. Some people will continue on this journey with me and others will be left be...

 Happy Birthday Jesus! For unto us a child is born, unto us a son is given: and the government shall be upon his shoulder: and his name shall be called Wonderful, Counsellor, The mighty God, The everlasting Father, The Prince of Peace." Isaiah, chapter 9, verse 6 Today is Christmas, I haven't been looking forward to today as this year we are having to do things a little differently. With my parents health they didn't want to do anything and with my daughter and me having to work we said that's fine. We will do a Christmas dinner on Saturday when I am off. We are also not giving any gifts this year as none of us can afford it. It's all good because the true spirit of Christmas is to celebrate Jesus birthday and what He did for us. We must remember He is the reason for the season. I just feel bad as I couldn't do a little something for the people in our life's that have been there for us this year. I pray they know how much their friendship, prayers, text, ca...

  This past weekend(12-13-25) my bestie and I went to a sip n shop event. If you are not familiar with what that is I will tell you. You go to a venue and they have tables set up where people sell their stuff that they made or sell things they are buying in lots. There is also multiple table setup with wine at the tables. You are given a sheet and when you are tasting the wines and you find one you like you mark it down on your sheet. Then you either buy said wine or you don't. This is the wine I bought. It was very light and had a good sweet taste about it with a hint of fruit. I especially like the looks of the bottle. I would say that is why I bought it was more for the bottle then what was in it. Looking at it once I got home had me thinking about how we look at people. We see a good looking guy or a fine looking lady and think wow would I be lucky to have them on my arm but it's not what is on the outside that counts it's what is on the inside. Like this bottle it hold...