Goodbye 2023 the dumpster fire that you were (part 1)



2023 was not kind to me (most of it was my doing). If I could sum it up in a few simple words it would be:  hot mess express turn dumpster fire. Let me start with I have always wanted to write or blog but let's face it, I'm not the best at writing and we all know that I would much rather talk. I figure with how people write and abbreviate everything I should be good, lol. For example: R u ok, fr, wryd, brb, lol, ttyl and a million other abbreviations, but this post is not about writing or spelling or how someone says something this is going to be a post about 2023 and the lessons I learned and God sense of humor, timing and grace. It's about hitting rock bottom and instead of going up you go sideways, it's about truly waking up and being thankful that you have life. 
I learned that you have to heal in order to truly live and to go toe to toe with yourself and face down all your issues. I learned that I have red flags and unhealthy boundaries and a few other character traits that I did not like. I learned who to let go and who to hang on to. I learned that actions speak louder than words and if they wanted to they would. I truly discovered who I am. You would think I would have known this by now seeing I am pushing 50. I guess with some of us it takes a little more time 🤷
What this year taught me is,  how strong I am, the great support system I have and most importantly what a mighty God I serve. As this year comes to an end I am thankful for everything I have gone through and for knowing God loves me right where I'm at, mess and all. I know without a doubt I wouldn't be here today or the person I am without Him.
PS. Bare with me as I'm trying to figure out how to be a blogger 

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