Southern Yankee

 I hope you find this. I hope you find the type of love where there aren’t any mixed signals, just you and your significant other looking at each other across the room, and as soon as your eyes meet, you can't stop smiling. I hope you find a love that’s selfless. The type of person who would do anything for you with no questions asked. The type of love where someone simply has your best interest at heart. The type of love where your happiness makes up so much of their own. I hope you find a love that’s willing to make sacrifices. The type of person who will meet you halfway. I hope you find a love that’s faithful. Every time you look at them, you know there isn’t anyone that can shake what you two have together. I hope you find a love that forgives you. The type of person who can see you make mistakes but also helps you to learn from them. The type of person who can see you at your worst and still think you’re irreplaceable. The type of person who understands you will never be perf...

 One day, you’ll meet someone whose love matches yours. They’ll show you new perspectives and care for you deeply. They’ll be your rock, lifting you up when you succeed and holding you when you’re broken. Their actions will always match their words, giving you the security you crave. But until then, love yourself fully. Be kind to your heart and appreciate everything your mind and body do for you. Break free from toxic patterns and believe in your worth. Stay open and ready. When the right person arrives, you’ll be in the perfect place to let them in, and you’ll experience a love like no other. 💖

 It's the 4th of July and as the evening comes to a close on one of my favorite holidays I have to say it was a pretty good day and night. From my day at work to the firework display at Balboa Beach. Other than the traffic I would say today has been a 10/10. The only other thing I can say is I should know better than to plan something because it never goes as plan and I also realized that not all holidays are happy ones for people. Sorry love that you have to deal with a heartache today. I pray someday you will be able to enjoy this day again and that you will be able to remember your love one without it always causing you so much pain. I hope everyone had a fun and safe time and now the count down begins for Christmas. God Bless America and God Bless You All 🙏🎆

 Missing: Today I'm going missing I don't want to be found I'm disappearing for a while  Let silence be my sound  I want to get my head straight  And find myself again  I've lost all my direction It's been replaced with pain It's nothing you have done wrong You've not drove me away My mind has got real fuzzy  And the clouds have all gone grey I can't even explain it Because I'm not sure myself  All I know is I've been struggling  With my mental health  I think I'm OK one day  The next I'm full of tears  I know I've never told you  But I've felt like this for years  Didn't want to be a burden  And make you feel sad too That's why I've made my mind up It's something I must do  I will talk when I'm ready Thanks a lot for being there  I'll call you when I need you  Please keep me in your prayers  Rachael Burton  wrote this

So today is my 48th birthday and my one goal was to have 50 blogs written and posted. It looks like I didn't achieve that goal as this is my 48th blog. I thought how appropriate to be writing my 48th on my 48th. Maybe I did reach my goal, if I can get two more posts in before midnight technically that would still count, right? Anyways you ask how does it feel to be almost a half a century year old? I don't feel any different and I really don't look any different other then maybe more tired. My day has one of many things and emotions. I have gotten text, FB messages, FB post to my wall and phone calls. Some of them are from people who I knew would wish me happy birthday but there are a few that really surprised me. I'm still holding on to the hope that a couple of people I thought would send me a birthday wish will still do it. I'm not going to make a big deal out of it but to say I'm not hurt would be a lie. Either way I can clearly see who I matter to and I...